Thursday, March 31, 2011

Day 81: Another Month Down

Happy last day of March everyone!
I'm so happy that this month is finally over! Now, we're in the home stretch with this deployment, and my anxiety is through the roof. Every day is already feeling longer than the previous day, and I'm hoping that this last month doesn't just drag on forever.
Today was pretty good though. I left the house early to go on post and get the t-shirts that Kent has been requesting for a while from his Battalion.  But first, I had to get gas, because my light came on as I drove onto post, and then I had to swing by the post office to mail off a bundle of eye bills. But, I finally got to Kent's battalion, and I got up to the door, only to discover that their lunch break had already started...sigh...I was so upset. Then I had an awkward half hour to kill before I needed to be at work, so I took the opportunity to scope out the parking lot behind battalion that we're supposed to park in after the welcome home ceremony. During all of the briefings, I was trying to figure out which parking area they were talking about, so I had to investigate it before the excitement of that day made me unable to navigate around post. lol.

So, after finding the parking lot, I took my sweet time driving back across post to work...I let EVERYONE cross the street in front of me, etc, but I still got to work 20 minutes early. So, I sat in my car, and listened to my iPod, while playing solitaire on said iPod. I feel kind of lame, but it was nice to just sit and jam out to some music for once.

Then, I finally went into work, and today was pretty good. A lot of our screamers canceled today, which was a relief, and by 4:30, we only had four pre-toddlers left. Just a nice, relaxed day, which was perfect.

Now, I have to figure out what April Fool's joke I'm going to play on my co-workers tomorrow...
hmmm, so many choices. Any suggestions?

Well, good night everyone! Hope you all had better March's than I did.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Day 80: Making Friends Over Soup!

Well, thankfully, I was able to find my checkbook today! I'm so relieved! Especially, since I got to work, and couldn't find it anywhere. I was completely freaking out, and debating whether I should call the bank before I left work or wait until I got home and looked one more time. Then, after work, I went out to my car, and decided to look in there again. After no luck looking from the driver's seat, I decided to walk around to the other side of the car, and check the passenger side better. LUCKILY, it was sitting on the floor next to the passenger seat, wedged between the seat and the door. It was the biggest sigh of relief that I've had in a LONG time! It was fantastic!
So, now, I can successfully pay my rent on Friday, as well as pay for the tee-shirts that Kent had me order from his Battalion. What a great day!
After finding my checkbook, I decided to attend Wednesday Lenten Service at Church. And I'm really glad that I did, because I met some people while at the "Soup and Bread" portion of the festivities, and sat with a very lovely woman named, "Cindy" during the service. I'm slowly beginning to feel more and more welcome at this church, and that makes me feel so better about my life here. It's just nice to feel welcomed, and included in something bigger than myself.

Ummmm, what else?
Not much else happened today. But, good news! Tomorrow's finally the last day of March!!! Another month closer to the end of this deployment!
G'night everyone!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Day 79: Why do I Keep Losing Things??

AHH! I keep losing everything! I've also been super forgetful about lots of stuff, including paying bills, eating meals, and other important things. I just don't know what the problem is.

Today before work, I finally decided to sit down and decide on how much to pay on each of my medical bills that I have filling up my house from all of my eye troubles last summer. I have 3 main bills from 3 different doctors, including the anesthesiologist, and now I've just started getting another bill, from the doctor who has yet to do anything for me in Nashville...sigh. So, anyway, I sat down with my bills, some envelopes, and my checkbook, and when I went to look for my book of stamps, I discovered that I had used them all and not gotten out and bought more yet! I can't believe my memory these days. Well, I got myself organized and headed out of the house about 20 minutes early for work so that I could go by the post office first.

Well, after the post office, I went to work, and actually got there about 10 minutes early, so I decided to begin writing checks and sealing envelopes in my car. Unfortunately, that's the last place I remember seeing my checkbook...I can't find it ANYWHERE!! I placed it in my purse before heading into work, and now I can't seem to find it. I looked in my purse over and over again, I checked my car twice, and I checked the bag that I had taken with me in the car today....I even checked the sidewalk between my car and the front door...
I'm really hoping that I simply left it at work somewhere, like on the staff desk in the infant room, or HOPEFULLY in my cubby. I've decided that I'm not going to freak out until tomorrow. If I can't find it at work, THEN I'm allowed to freak out. Until then, I'm just telling myself that it's there, that that everything is okay....Right?

I'm gonna go watch late-night episodes of The Nanny on Nick at Nite.
G'night all!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Day 78: Back on the Same Page

Well, this morning, my stomach and I were finally back on the same page! I felt soooo much better. This is leading me to believe that it was INDEED food poisoning. The fever and the continued pain yesterday was getting me worried that it was more serious than a case of food poisoning, but since it passed so abruptly, I think my original hunch was correct.
Anyway. I went to work today, and when all of my co-workers asked me how my weekend was, I answered with, "well, I didn't really even leave bed all weekend." and when they gave me jealous responses, I promptly interjected with, "well, I had food poisoning, so it wasn't necessarily an enjoyable weekend in bed..." I was glad that they didn't end up feeling jealous that I didn't work the Super Saturday. I think they were all expecting to hate me, since I had the whole weekend off to do what I wanted....Sorry to disappoint guys!

OOOOKK, um not much else happened today. I went to the Commissary for groceries after work, which was cool, I guess. Plus, I got Pepto Bismal while I was there, so in case I get sick again, I'll actually be somewhat prepared!

Ok. So, now that I feel better, I need to make sure that I stay that way, so good night all!
Hope tomorrow is as good as today!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Day 77: Shower, Please?!

Well, I woke up this morning, still sick as a dog. The only thing that was better than last night was that my fever had broken over night. YAY.
But, I spent the whole attempting to do things. First task, get some food into my body.  I was out of Saltine crackers, so I grabbed a flour tortilla, because I didn't have the strength to stand and wait for bread to toast up. So, I ended up eating about half of the tortilla, and then felt really sick, and full, so I gave up. This all happened around 11:30am or so.  Then, about 3 o'clock, I mustered up the courage to venture into the kitchen yet again. This time, I made myself some toast, put just a little bit of butter on them, and spent about an hour nibbling on that... I was quite thankful that I managed to eat two whole slices of bread.
Um, next task of the day was to finally go down my driveway and get my mail from yesterday. That was one of the more frustrating parts of today. I managed to change out of my pajama top, into a more presentable t-shirt, and then had to lay down in the fetal position for about 15 minutes, before pulling on my sweatpants. After the sweatpants, it was back in the fetal position for another 10 minutes or so, and then finally, I was able to get my shoes and a jacket on. I made it all the way out to the living room, and had to sit down, because my stomach was in SOOO much pain. Anyway, after the little break in the living room, I was able to make it outside for the first time since Friday night, and trudged down my driveway to the mailbox.

I was really excited when I finally got back into the warmth of my bed, mail in hand!

My final, and most daunting task that I needed to achieve was to eat something that didn't consist of just starch. My opponent: Ramen Noodles. Thankfully, I only used a little over half of the seasoning packet, instead of the whole thing, and I think that helped a lot. I am very proud to say that I was successful in this endeavor. I can't believe it, but I've taken my first step towards eating real food again!

The most frustrating part of my day today was that every time I got up out of bed, my stomach would start hurting so bad that I couldn't even make it 4 steps without doubling over in pain. It was so upsetting that I couldn't even have the strength or ability to go to the corner drug store and get medicine for myself. I just felt helpless. :(
I miss my husband.

Hopefully, I will wake up in the morning feeling a ton better, and then I can finally get that shower that I so desperately need!!

much love to all!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Day 76: Really?

I can't believe it! I woke up this morning about 8am, feeling completely nauseous, and just all-around awful. So, I ran to the bathroom immediately, for fear of puking in my bed, and let's just say that I'm about 85% sure that I have food poisoning, most likely from my dinner last night. I had Zaxby's, which is a chicken restaurant, and the food was awesome!...Last night....this morning?...not so awesome....

Therefore, today has been quite the pathetic display of my helplessness. The only reason I got out of bed today was to go to the bathroom, or to go to the Kitchen to fill up my water cup...Pathetic day....

So, really I don't have a lot of news tonight, because I really didn't DO anything all day. I spent the WHOLE day on Facebook, and watching TV, hoping that my nausea would go away. It didn't. I was able to nap from about 4-5:30 or so..I'm really not sure exactly, because I never really decided to take a nap, it just kind of happened. When I woke up, I was ABSOLUTELY freezing, even though my heat is set to 72 degrees, so I decided to take my temperature, just to see if that was the issue. Upon waking up, my temperature was 100.4, and just about 40 minutes ago, I took it again, and it was 101.6!!
Hopefully, this doesn't mean that I have something worse than food poisoning.
I really hope that I wake up tomorrow feeling a whole lot better than I did today. I need ONE day off that I can actually enjoy this weekend...

I'm going to wait for my hubby to get on Skype now, and then, it's sleepytime! I'm really stoked to sleep!!

G'night all! Hope everyone is feeling better than I am tonight.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Day 75: Not Much to Say Today

Ahh. It's finally the weekend. This week has just been inching along at a snail's pace. I can't believe it. Each day felt like two! But finally, tomorrow is Saturday, and I can lounge around the house, work on my scrapbooking, and watch a movie or two. My current Netflix is "The Sorcerer's Apprentice", so I'll probably try and make time to watch that tomorrow afternoon at some point.
Also, even though it feels like I JUST did laundry, I have to do some this weekend...poo.

Today was pretty good. We only had a couple of screamers this afternoon at work, but I was just not in the mood to listen to it today, so I took it upon myself to coddle them relentlessly...Sigh...oh well. I have days when I'm okay with letting the children cry it out, but for some reason, their screaming almost made me want to start screaming and crying with them. I think I'm just ready for the weekend.

After work, I went to Kohl's to use my 30% off coupon, and finally found a tablecloth for my kitchen table! I'm still on the fence about it though, because it's a little bit too small for my super large table, but I think it doesn't look too silly, so I'm going to see if I still like it after looking at it for a weekend.

Must sleep.
night now.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Day 74: Beans, Beans, Beans

Well, today was pretty similar to the previous couple of days. Didn't get a whole lot of sleep last night, since the hubby called me on Skype at about 1am this morning. Thankfully, after our half hour conversation, I was able to fall back asleep pretty quick. lol. I went to work, put children to sleep, fed them snack, changed their diapers, comforted them when they were screaming bloody murder, ummmm washed my hands probably 50 times, and had a pretty good day. Not much to complain about, really. Which is also a little frustrating. Everyday seems to be feeling the same as the day before. Hopefully, this weekend will be a much needed little break from the monotony.

Then for dinner, I had a super lazy dinner of canned Pork 'n Beans, and potato chips... I'm certainly not proud of this choice of dinner...but I didn't really have anything in the fridge or freezer for dinner, and I didn't feel like eating a sandwich, so when I opened up the pantry to choose a soup, the first can I saw...was Pork 'n Beans. lol. It wasn't even a brand name can, it was Kroger brand...sad night. Oh well, I was able to add a couple of spices and seasoning (mustard, Worcestershire sauce, and seasoning, and it was pretty decent.

Although, the whole time I was eating them, all I could think of was the scene in Dennis the Menace, where Dennis has been kidnapped, and is sitting at the campfire with the bad man, as he heats up a giant can of beans...silliness.

Anyway, my day was a good one, but also pretty mediocre as far as events, good or bad.

I'm going to go to play games on Facebook until I get tired. Then it's off to bed!
Night all!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Day 73: Tardiness is not Appreciated

Well, today I finally had a day where nothing got me choked up. I'm very proud of that fact. I was even able to talk about my aunt's passing with a couple of my co-workers. I didn't get into any details, but now there a few people at work who know that my aunted passed away this past weekend. Which I think is progress. But, it was mostly because people kept asking me if I wanted to work for them this weekend for Super Saturday, and I kept saying "no" because I don't want to get roped into working, and then either want to, or have to go home. So, I would answer, "Well, I would, but my aunt just passed away on Saturday, so I want to keep my weekend open, in case I have to go home." They understood, but none of them really seemed concerned about my loss. They were mostly concerned with the fact that I can't work for them...sigh.. Oh Well. I guess I can't ask for everyone to be super understanding and sympathetic. Maybe I should have started crying to get them to see that I'm upset about the situation. Whatever.
Ok. umm, work was pretty good. Nothing super crazy happened. Just another day.
After work, I went to the Commissary on post to get a couple groceries. While perusing the aisles, I got a call from my hubby! I was shocked, because it was like 5:30pm our time, which means it was like 3:00am his time. He said that he was waiting for one of his men to show up for duty, apparently he was already 3 hours late, and he was just curious as to how late he was going to decide to be. He sounded so tired and angry, I felt so bad for him. He shouldn't be dealing with such laziness. Especially since the soldier was one of his higher enlisted men. This guy should be setting an example to the other soldiers, but instead, he's apparently been showing up late to his post repeatedly.
I don't know. I just think it's ridiculous. In the civilian world, if that guy showed up late day after day, he would lose his job. It just seems crazy that there aren't more consequences in today's Army.
Oh well. I just hope that Kent laid down the law when that guy finally decided to show up to work. I really hope that he told him what for!
Anyway. Kent warned me that he was most likely not going to be getting on skype tonight, since he was still awake 6 hours ago, and I completely understand. That man needs his sleep! But, it's still hard to get myself to go to bed without yakking at him. At least he called me! :)
Sometimes I think I'm the luckiest army wifey in the world!

Okay, speaking of needing sleep, this Army Wife/Baby Caregiver needs quite a bit of it.
Sending my love to all of my diligent readers!!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Day 72: Spring=Allergies

I'm so happy that spring has finally arrived! The weather today was absolutely gorgeous, and I took advantage of the weather as much as I could.
So, I kept my windows rolled down, opened up my sunroof, and blasted my ipod on my way to work, as well as on the way to Walmart after work, and then on the way home. Good times.

Although, the coming of spring also means that my allergies are returning as well. I can feel my sinuses slowly swelling up, and getting more sore each day. I dread the day that I will wake up with another sinus headache that knocks me right on my tuches. But it's okay, because spring also means that my hubby is almost home!! yay!! I'll gladly take an allergy attack head on if it means that he would be home sooner. :)

Oh, and I think I've finally figured out why Peaches is so fixated on the back sliding glass door in my kitchen in the dark. Tonight, I heard a cat wailing outside my house, and it sounded really close. I was in the bedroom, and once I saw that Peaches was hiding under my bed, and not the one making all the noise, I ventured out the kitchen to investigate. When I flipped the back porch light on, I saw a very matted, sickly looking orange cat, standing on my back porch, making a horrible noise over and over again. So, completely freaked out, I banged on the door and yelled "Get!" real loud, and it ran away, thankfully....
Then, still freaked out, I decided to go and get my phone and call my mom. While on the phone with her, I went back into the kitchen, turned the back light on again, and saw ANOTHER cat on my back porch. This time it was a black and white cat, that looked like it was much better taken care of. I think the first cat was definitely a stray, but this one looked like it could be a neighbor's cat. So, I scared that one away too.
I don't know if they can tell that Peaches is here, or if those are the cats that Peaches has been growling at in past weeks, or what. I just know that it definitely got my heart pounding, and that I instantly turned into a very protective Cat-Mommy.
Anyway. Sleep is calling me.
G'night all!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Day 71: Trust equals Faith

So, today was better than I thought it would be. I started my monday by being woken up by my wonderful husband calling me on Skype. Which is totally one of my favorite things now. Yay Yay! Best wake up call.

Well, our talk on Skype made my Monday start off right. Which I very much appreciated. So, after some lunch and a really wonderful shower, I was off to work. Work was pretty good, and the babies were all mostly in a pretty good mood, except towards the end of the day, but that's to be expected, I think. By the end of the day (5pm) we had 3 out of 4 of our children asleep. lol. The beauty of the bouncy seats and all the magic that they possess.
I'm glad that I have a job, because I really don't know what I would have done this week if I didn't have somewhere that I HAD to be. Probably would have spent today in my pj's, eating Lindor Truffles and popcorn, and watching sad movies or something. But, thankfully, I have a job where I get the privilege to work with some amazing little infants and pre-toddlers. I like to think that I'm making a difference in not only their parents' lives, but in the children's lives as well.  I don't know. I get a little mushy when I talk about my kiddos, and I haven't even really been working all that long.
I guess I just really appreciate the way that the babies look at the world. Everything is amazing to them. Bubbles can entertain them for hours, and no matter how many times they go down that little slide in the classroom, it's just as exciting as the time before.  I just really love to witness their innate innocence, and experience the amazing trust that they give to anyone who is willing to give them a bottle or rock them to sleep.
Which brings me to the sermon that the pastor gave yesterday in church.  He spoke of the undeniable trust that infants possess just naturally, and that we must look at faith in the same way. It's not about trying to base our faith on understanding the scriptures, etc, but faith is based solely upon trust. Trust in the Lord that he will be there for us. I think that this message is part of what is getting me through this difficult time in my life. I'm just trying to remember that God has a plan, and that I have to trust that he will see it through.

Anyway. I'm feeling better, and I think that losing my aunt is actually helping to strengthen my relationship with the Lord, which to me, is ironic, because my aunt was also my godmother. Even in death, she is helping to  guide me on my spiritual path. I'm hoping that this will be just the push that I need to get my relationship with God going in the right direction again.

Ok. So, goodnight to all. Thank you all so much for all of your kind words and thoughtful prayers in this trying time.
Love to all!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Day 70: Trudging through this month

So, for a while there, this month was just flying by, and it was getting me excited that it would soon be April, and that my hubby would be home in the blink of an eye. Well, if this weekend is any indicator as to how the rest of this month is going to feel, then I'm in store for a very long 11 days.....Sigh. This weekend just seemed to trudge along very slowly.
It probably didn't help that I went from having my parents here, and two people to talk to all the time, to going back to talking to a cat. lol. It's also been a rough couple of days, which is to be expected, but today, I definitely felt a lot better than yesterday. I'm still not happy, or even content, really. But I think I'm beginning to reach the stage of acceptance. Not sure though. I've never really been through the grieving process before, except with this deployment, but the loss of a family member is just a whole other monster than a deployment.
I'm supposed to be at work tomorrow at noon, unless I get a call telling me otherwise, and I'm nervous. I'm excited to see my babies again, and stop dwelling over my sadness, but at the same time, I really don't want to cry at work. I'm doing what I can to try and keep my personal business out of work, but I don't know if when they ask me, "how was your weekend, jessica?", if I'll be able to just say that it was fine. I don't know. Hopefully I don't have a breakdown in public. But, whatever, we'll just have to wait and see.

I made it to church today, which I think was really good for me. It was good to 1. get out of the house, and 2. get to spend some time talking to God in a church setting. And yes, I began to cry several times, including during prayers, when they prayed for those who are grieving the loss of loved ones, etc. So, yeah, I was one of those people who cry in church....again.... But it really made me feel more at peace about losing my aunt. It was a good purging of emotions. I could feel the love of the congregation, and of the Lord in that room this morning, and it was comforting to know that strangers were, in effect, praying for me and my family.

Anyway. Today was better than yesterday.
That's all I can really say. Hopefully tomorrow will be even better.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Day 69: okay

Well, just as I suspected, today was a hurricane of emotion for me.
My parents left for St. Louis today around noon or so. It was hard to see them leave, but I know that it will be better to have tomorrow all to myself so I can get some chores done, such as laundry, before hopefully returning to work on Monday.
After staring at my computer for a couple of hours after they left, I finally decided that I couldn't just sit around all day waiting to find out terrible news, so I went to return a book to Goodwill for my mom, and ended up wandering around for a good hour or so, dreading returning to my empty house. So, I headed across town to look at Hobby Lobby, my favorite store, and walked around waiting to be inspired by a new hobby, but nothing really struck me....except soap-making, and I don't even use bar soap, so that's pointless.
Then on my drive home, I mistakenly listened to Rascal Flatts, and began to sing along, and once I started listening to the beautiful lyrics I was singing, I began to cry. Thankfully, in the past couple of months, I've had a lot of practice with calming myself down in order to be able to drive, and when I had calmed down enough, I went and got myself some Subway for dinner, since I didn't really feel like reheating anything, much less cook anything.
I got home around 6, to read the news that I had been avoiding all day. My cousin had posted that my aunt had passed early this afternoon, surrounded by her family, and that she did so bravely. She also said that my aunt was peaceful and happy in the end. That makes me feel better, of course, but upon first reading this paragraph, I was a wreck. So, I let myself have my cry. It lasted longer than it probably should, but I had my cry. Then I found a couple of friends who were online, and began to talk with them. I would like to personally thank Kristen and Brianna for being there for me in that moment, even if it was just online, because I was not ready to talk to anyone on the phone yet, nor was I capable of speaking, so just being able to chat online was really good for me. It really helped me to regain my composure. I ate my sandwich, and then cracked open a bag of sour gummy worms. One of my personal favorites.
After much eating, and some more crying, I had achieved a state of..i don't know what it was. I was sick of crying. So, I finally felt strong enough to call my mom. Boy, was I wrong. I only got through about 5 words before starting up again. She had posted a picture of my aunt at her 50th birthday party, which was about 10 years ago (she would have been 60 in September), and it made me so happy to see a picture of my aunt Linda the way that I remember her the most. The hilarious, creative, and loving woman that I grew up idolizing. I don't know. Something about that picture...just made me start to cry all over again. But not because of losing her today, but because of that was a picture of the beautiful woman that was slowly taken away from us by ALS. Lately, it's been hard for me to imagine her back in those days, so the picture was a nice reminder.
Anyway. For those of you who are worried about me. (mom...) I'm okay. I'm not going to sit here and tell you that I'm doing really well, because that's a lie. I'm not doing well. I'm not even "fine". I'm just, okay. I've been better, but I know that I'm not at rock bottom. I'm just going to take this one step at a time.
As of right now, my next step is to finish this blog so that I can get ready for bed.
SO, on that note, Goodnight to you all.
Please keep my family in your prayers.

P.S. God just gained a wonderful new angel with some really awesome quilting/crafting skills. I know there's got to be a big party going on in heaven right now.   :)

Friday, March 18, 2011

Day 68: The Calm Before the Storm

Today was much better than yesterday, and I'm feeling a little better about the situation with my aunt, mostly due to the kind words that you all gave me! I love knowing that my friends and family are there for me when I need them the most.
In fact, I was able to kind of enjoy today. It was my parents' last night in town, so dad grilled up some cheeseburgers on my new grill, and we enjoyed a lovely dinner, and after that, I treated them to a movie. We went and saw Beastly, and I was actually pleasantly surprised at how much I liked it. Of course, it wasn't perfect, but Neil Patrick Harris was hilarious in his role, and I actually was able to forget how much I hate Vanessa Hudgens during the entire course of the movie, which is quite remarkable. lol.
It was nice to go and escape from this life for a couple hours, so the movie was much appreciated.

Not much else really happened today. I went to work, it was fun, the weather was absolutely beautiful, etc, etc.
I'm just worried that since today was so nice, that tomorrow is going to be that much worse... Keep up those prayers!!
Much love to all.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Day 67: Dreading this Saturday.... :(

Ok, today's post is a depressing one. Just a warning....
I really wish Kent was home, especially this weekend. My mom got a call last night from my Uncle Dan, her brother-in-law, telling her that my Aunt Linda, her sister, has decided that she is ready to meet her maker. My aunt was diagnosed with ALS about 4-5 years ago, and has been suffering from the horrible disease ever since. There is no known cure, so it was really more of a waiting game. But, over the last couple weeks, I've been hearing from my mom and grandma that Linda has decided that she is done fighting with the monster of ALS, and wants to go to be with God now.

This saturday will be her last day.

I don't know what to do. I feel numb about the situation, and I almost feel like if I ignore the issue, then it won't be real...I know that Saturday is going to be one of the hardest days yet. My Aunt Linda was always my favorite Aunt growing up. She was a brilliant quilter, a loving mother, aunt, wife, and grandmother. She was also my godmother, which I'm pretty sure she would just use as an excuse to buy me more Barbie dolls, and other amazing presents. Sometimes I wonder if I already feel like she's gone. I haven't had a real conversation with her, or been able to hear her voice in so long, that I thought I had already made peace with her illness, but now that she's really going to be gone, I feel like my world is crumbling around me.

Plus, it doesn't really help that my parents are also leaving on Saturday. They have to get back to their regular lives, as do I, it just falls on a really rotten day.

I don't really know what else to talk about. This is really the only thing on my mind.

So, um. I would like to ask all of you who read this blog still, to take a moment to send out a prayer for my family. Even though she's been sick for so long, this is still going to be a very difficult time. So, prayers for peace for my family and for a comfortable and peaceful end to my aunt's long and vicious battle with ALS. But also, I would like to ask for everyone to send up a prayer for everyone who is dealing with this fatal disease, as well as their families. Nobody deserves to suffer the way that Linda has.

Ok. I'm going to sleep.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Day 66: A Saturday in the Middle of the Week

Today was another good day. I woke up at 7:15, and got ready to go to my Brigade Reintegration Briefing. I was actually quite excited once I left the meeting. It was reassuring to be talking about Redeployment happening within the next month or so! I was so giddy after the meeting, actually, that I almost forgot that I had to drive over to work to fill out my employee satisfaction survey...which ended up only taking about 5-10 minutes to complete. After all that nonsense, I went back home to get my parents so that we could go to the PX and look at lawnmowers. I really wanted my dad to help me buy a lawnmower, because I really have no idea what to look for in a lawnmower, so his opinion was very helpful. We ended up getting a Poulen Pro (spelling?), and my dad put it together for me, and taught me how to fill it with gas, prime the engine, and finally, how to start the engine and push the mower. I feel a little embarrassed that I am only just now learning these basic life skills, but I've never had to worry about mowing a lawn. Hopefully I don't have to mow TOO many times before Kent gets home, because the little practice run that I did didn't really go that well...hahaha

It was crazy, though. Today kept feeling like a Saturday, and I kept getting upset that I have to go into work tomorrow, because it's so strange to me to have a day off in the middle of the week! Ridiculous.

For dinner, we fixed my absolute favorite dinner of all time--Spaghetti Pie, which is basically baked spaghetti for those of you that have not had the privilege to experience it first hand. I love this week because I can cook actual meals, and there's not a zillion helpings leftover! Not that we don't have any leftovers...but that's alright, I'll eat them next week when I'm alone again. :(
Then, my parents challenged me to a game of Scrabble. And I WON! AND I used all of my tiles in one turn and spelled "strained", earning myself 92 points for one turn. Remarkably, my mom was only like 3 points behind me at the end, though. After the first game, we had a re-match, and I won again! It was just a good night for my brain I guess!! hahaha
Good times. Ok. bed.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Day 65: A Pleasant Surprise

Well, I received a pleasant surprise today! I was given tomorrow off from work, so that I can spend some quality time with my parents while they're here! I was definitely not really expecting to get an entire day off of work this week, so I was super happy to find that out today. Yay!
Unfortunately, I still have to go on post for our Brigade's Reintegration Briefing at 9am, and go into work to fill out some online survey, but after that, my parents and I are going to have the whole day to do whatever we want. I have no idea what we're going to end up doing, but I know that whatever we decide, it will be awesome.

Anyway. My day was pretty good. I went to work for all of 3 hours and 10 minutes, since this week, I've apparently been given the lovely privilege of leaving early each day! YAY!!! I love it when bosses understand that your personal life is important too. It gives me hope that I'll be able to spend a lot of time with my man when he gets back this spring!!
Then, when I got home, my parents made Hamburger Stroganoff, which is one of my absolute favorites, and my dad got to experience the reason that I hate my stove sometimes. For some reason, it takes my stove over 30 minutes just to get a pot of water to start boiling! It's so frustrating, and I was glad that my dad got upset about it too, because that means that it's not just me that thinks it takes entirely too long. At least I know that I'm not completely crazy.
Then it was time for a new episode of Glee, which of course, did NOT disappoint! I was a little afraid of the fact that they were going to be doing original songs, because one of my favorite parts of Glee is their covers of both mainstream, popular music and broadway songs.  But I was definitely impressed by the new songs of tonight. The two that they sang at Regionals are definitely destined to be on the Top 40 by the end of the week. Hopefully Glee will continue to impress me when it returns in April, because it's always the highlight of my week. Wonderful television.
Also, my mom made Cherry Dump Cake tonight for dessert, and it was SOOO good. I'm so glad that we have a bunch leftover too, so we can keep eating it the rest of the week. :) Great times! Plus, now I know how to make it on my own, so I can bring it to potluck functions, etc. Super yummy, yummy!
Well, I'm off to bed so that I can wake up early and go to the Reintegration Briefing. Hopefully this one will give me more information....doubtful....
Ok. Much love to all!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Day 64: I Could Get Used to This

I was awoken this morning by a text message from my room lead at 7:55am, asking if I could work from 11-5, instead of just 1-5, because she had to go to a funeral, so I said, Sure. So, about an hour later, I trudged into the bathroom for my morning shower, and then had a lovely bowl of cereal for breakfast, and sat around in the living room, chatting with my parents, and hoping that Kent would be able to get online before I had to leave. Fortunately, he did! It must have been fate that made him get online an hour and 45 minutes earlier than he is used to, but it definitely worked out perfectly! I feel so outrageously blessed that I am able to talk to him so much. I was definitely not expecting this amount of daily contact, and I thank the Lord each and every day that we are able to communicate so often.
Then, it was off to work! I was there so much earlier than I'm used to, and it was strange having both lunch AND snack with them, as well as helping put them down for their naps. Usually, when I get there, the pre-toddlers are already asleep, with some of them waking up already. It was very weird.  But, anyway, it was a really good day at work, and I even got to go home early (4:30), since I came in 2 hours early, and we had a lot of parents cancel because of all of the rain today. Good times.

After work, I came home, watched tv with the parents, and then dad decided to break in the new grill by grilling up some steaks and beef hot dogs! Yum Yum! What a great dinner! Also, it's so great that I'm not completely and solely responsible for all of the prep work and clean-up. I love having other people in the house. I love not being alone....well, except for Peaches! :)

It was such a great day! Like I said, I could get used to this.
Ok, night all!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Day 63: I'm on a roll now!

Another great day today. I was unfortunately unable to awake from my coma this morning to go to church, so that wasn't all that good, but it was really nice to sleep in, so I can't complain. Remembered that there is no such thing as daylight savings time in Afghanistan, so talked to my hubby an hour later than usual, and then watched Legally Blonde while I awaited the arrival of my parents. 
They got here around 3, and we sat around and talked for about an hour or so before we ventured out to get some groceries for the week. We went down to Walmart, and I bought myself my first charcoal grill!! I'm so excited! It was only $35, so if it breaks, or gets stolen, it won't be the end of the world, but it's actually pretty nice, too. It has a shelf on the side of it that lifts up, so you can put the meat or a pan of sauce right there. And, it's got places to hang utensils, etc. I'm just way too excited about this grill. Hopefully one of these days this week is nice enough that we can go outside and grill up the steaks and hot dogs we got! Yay for spring!

Hopefully, my schedule works out this week so that I don't have to work everyday at the same time, but as of right now, I have NO idea what my schedule is. I'm assuming that tomorrow I'm supposed to be there from 1-5, since that's been my normal schedule, so that's my plan unless I get a call that tells me something else. Who knows, really? I guess it's good that my parents and I haven't made any concrete plans for their visit, because then not knowing my schedule would be more of a problem. But, really, I would be perfectly happy just sitting around each night, watching some tv, and eating good food. I'm so excited for this week.

Tonight, mom fixed Taco Salad, and it was sooo good. It doesn't get much better than eating the food that I grew up with...except if Kent were here to enjoy it with me...but, so is life. He will be leaving that awful place in one month and about a week! I'm so ecstatic! When I think about the rest of the deployment in those terms, it makes things seem so much easier. It feels like he's going to be here in a matter of 2 weeks or so. It's a challenge not to get too excited too early!
Anyway, I'm going to stop for tonight. I've got to get to sleep in case my lead calls me in at 8 o'clock in the morning. GAHH!
Night all!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Day 62: Clorox Wipes and Onion Rings

Today was awesome!
After talking with the hubby in the morning, I took a nice, long shower, which was absolutely fantastic! I even took the time to shave my legs, so that I could wear capris today! Yay! Which brings me to the next awesome part of today. It was beautiful outside! Absolutely gorgeous! I wore capris and a short sleeve shirt, and I wasn't cold at all! Spring's coming, which means that the day that Kent comes home is getting closer too! YAY!!

ALSO, I got my $8 Crocs in the mail today! I had gotten a very confusing email from Dick's Sporting Goods, which is where I had ordered them from, telling me that my order was cancelled, due to incorrect product information. But, I had already gotten an email confirming my order with them. So, I just decided to wait and see if I got the shoes anyway. So, this morning, I was pleasantly surprised to see the box sitting inside my screen door! Yay for cheap shoes! And, I wore them all day, and my feet don't even hurt, so I fully plan on wearing them to work this summer, because our dress code states that we have to have closed-toe shoes. And for all of you who detest the duck-like shape that most crocs give you, like I do, they look like actual shoes, which is awesome. Here's a picture:

Anyway, I love my new shoes, and I love that I only paid $8 for them!

After my shower, and after getting my crazy cool new shoes, I cleaned my house from top to bottom. I even moved Peaches' litter box into MY bathroom as opposed to the hall bathroom, because she keeps getting litter all over the place, and since my parents are going to be here for a week, I didn't want them to have to deal with that all week. Annnd, I cleaned both barhrooms, cleaned my stove top with a Mr. Clean Magic Eraser, and even made my bed! lol

Then, about 3 hours later, I decided to head out into this beautiful weather and run a couple more errands. Don't worry, I had the sun roof and my windows open, and music blaring! I went by Walgreen's, and then went to the nearest Valvoline and got my oil changed, finally, and got my back tire filled up by some professionals. I was so proud of myself. After that, I spent like an hour walking around Hobby Lobby, without buying anything (I still don't know how that happened), and went to TJ Maxx, followed by stopping by Kohl's to exchange a belt that I had gotten that was WAY too big for me!

Finally, my wonderful day ended with a lovely visit from my friends from school!! They were in Florida for spring break this week, and on their way back up to Missouri, they stopped by my house and went out to dinner with me! I was so happy to see them again, and to finally get out of my house with other people! Not to mention, people that I can be myself with! I feel like the girls at work don't really know how I behave outside of work, so it was nice to just be a goofball again, and forget my stresses for an hour or so.
We went to the sports bar up the street from my house that I've been wanting to go to for a while, but haven't had the courage to go by myself. So, with friends in tow, I ventured into the unknown, hoping that the food was good, as well as the atmosphere. I was SO surprised at how yummy the food ended up being. Nothing too fancy, we all had cheeseburgers, but they were fantastic! Also, I got onion rings with my cheeseburger, and they were some of the best onion rings I've had in a while! So good! I hope that I can go back there quite often, since it's so close, that I could probably walk there if the weather is nice enough. (But, I'll wait until I have someone here with me, that I can walk with...I don't like walking alone in the dark)
All in all, a very great day!! Thanks to Pat, Julie, Megan, Lisa, and Rob for stopping in Clarksville just for me! Safe travels on the rest of your drive!! Hopefully, you will all still be in Kirksville when Kent and I visit in May!!!
I'm tired.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Day 61: Excitement is brewing!

Well, I guess I now have an extra day to prepare for my parents' arrival. As it turns out, my dad has to work tomorrow, so my parents won't be arriving until sunday. :(
But that's alright, because now I have more time to clean! lol. I really need to clean Peaches' litter box, it's getting scary in there. haha!
Today was very much like the rest of this week. Got up, got to talk to KENT!! YAY! Went to work and took care of babies all day, which was good. Today was pretty relaxed at work, which was awesome. We had three new babies who were all younger than 3 months, which was nuts, but they were all pretty easy-going. Also, I'm SO glad that I don't have to work Super Saturday tomorrow. My back is KILLING me! I'm sure that means that I'm picking up the children incorrectly, but I tried to do it the "proper" way today, and almost fell on my face, with a baby in my arms. Thankfully, my cat-like reflexes kicked in, and I saved myself. Regardless, I will probably just stick to my awful way of lifting them! o well...
After work, I headed to the PX to get a few things, and ended up with half a cart full of stuff that I've been meaning to get. I'm now the proud owner of a paper towel holder and a toothpick holder, which I have been restraining from purchasing since we moved to Tennessee in November! Also, after the PX, I drove out to Target and got a lazy susan for my kitchen table, as well as bath mats for both of our bathrooms. Now, I feel like my house looks just a bit more complete than before. I'm slowly but surely making it more and more homey. It makes me excited to have nice things and be able to enjoy them, even if they're not completely essential to my life.
Another thing I'm really excited about is that my friends that went to Florida for spring break are stopping in Clarksville on their way back up to Misssouri!! YAY! Best day ever! AND, it's not going to just be for a quick chat at a McDonald's! We're going to go somewhere to eat. Like, a sit-down restaurant. I get to see friends, and talk with people who aren't 16 months old! YAY!! I'm super uber excited! Hopefully it all works out!!
Anyway, I'm exhausted, so I'm going to close up shop for the night, and rest up for my day of cleaning and laughter with some great friends!
Bouncy Bouncy Bouncy!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Day 60: Dealing with a Dirty House

Ugh, I have so much to do in the next couple days.
I finally washed the dishes in that were filling up my kitchen sink tonight, and cleaned out my microwave, which was covered in butter from all of the microwave popcorn that I eat. hehehe. So, I'm really proud of that, because I've been ignoring them for quite some time now... And, tomorrow after work, I'm planning on going out and getting myself a tablecloth for my kitchen table, so my kitchen will hopefully look more grown up!! Then I still need to clean up the living room, man cave, and my room, which is a complete mess. (surprise, surprise!)
Today was quite a long day, if I do say so myself.
Went in to work at noon, but I left a little early, because I wanted to swing by the Shoppette first, and fill my back passenger-side tire with air. I had a note on my driver-side window last night after work that said, "Your rear passenger-side tire is LOW.", so I figured if a stranger thought it was a problem, that I should probably fix it.
Well, too bad that I'm completely incompetent when it comes to anything pertaining to cars. I drove into the parking lot and up the air machine, and for some reason, didn't see the button on the machine that you're supposed to push to start up the compressor. Well, I attempted to fill my tire without the machine on, because I don't know what I'm doing, and I ended up making the tire even flatter. So, in a panic, I called my dad, because I didn't know what else to do. He suggested that I go inside and ask for assistance. So, I did. I had to wait about 5 minutes for a man named Dave to come up from the back, and the cashier, Dave and I ventured out into the 40 degree weather to figure out what I was doing wrong. Well, as I mentioned before, I hadn't pushed the button. So, that was obviously the first step. Weelllll, apparently those air compressors need time to warm up soooo we stood around for another 10 minutes, waiting for the compressor to be ready to use, and we finally got the tire back up the pressure that it was when I pulled into the parking lot, and I was already 15 minutes late for work, so I thanked Dave for his help, and explained to him that I had to go to work, and that I would make another attempt later after I got off work. ughhhh frustration...
Bad thing was, I forgot that I had a mandatory staff meeting to attend at 5:30 this evening...and it was 2 hours long. Needless to say, my back tire is still low....mostly because after my staff meeting, my first priority was going to the PX and getting dry food for my Peaches. She ate the last of it yesterday, and had to go a WHOLE night without food in her bowl. Poor, neglected cat! lol. She's completely spoiled rotten!!

Anywho, Peaches is nice and fed, and I'm not completely sure I'm going to be able to sleep hubby still hasn't gotten online I irrationally worried about this? Of course, it's what I do.
Ok, I'm going to at least turn off my lights and watch some tv.
Here's hoping that you all sleep a lot better than I will!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Day 59: Wednesday, Wednesday

I'm so happy that this week is almost over. I'm so excited for my parents to get here on Saturday! I just hope we can find enough stuff to do that's cheap and/or free during the week!
AND, my room lead said that she would do her best to get me a day off next week, which would be excellent! Also, I'm really looking forward to some home-cooked meals. I feel like I eat the same stuff everyday, so it'll be good to be able to cook for 3 instead of just one.
Work today was....long.
I was only there for 5 hours, but it felt like the last 2 hours took FOREVER! We had so many children screaming and crying all at the same time, that I thought I was going to lose my mind! One of them was obviously super tired, and began to scream and wail uncontrollably, so we put him on a cot and attempted to get him to go to sleep. Well, that little boy screamed and screamed for about 40 minutes. He REFUSED to go to sleep. When we finally gave up and took him off the cot to change his diaper, he was covered in slobber, and I did my best to clean him up. I'm still not completely sure why he was so upset. I think it was maybe because he was SO tired that he just couldn't sleep. I don't know. When his mom showed up, she said that he's been having problems falling asleep lately, and that it wasn't completely out of the ordinary for him to do that.

SOOO yeah.
My head hurts pretty bad after the day I had today.
I just had to take a little break from blogging, because Kent just called me, and we spent about 15 minutes discussing his leave once he gets home. He has to turn in the paperwork soon, and I guess he was working on filling it out, so he decided to call me and make sure the details were set.
SOOO, now I'm super peppy and giddy! I can't wait to have my man home, so we can drive all around the country visiting various relatives and friends! YAY!! We're going up through St. Louis, and up to his home area first to see his friends and family, and visiting Truman people while we're in the area, which should be a great time, and then we're going back down to my parents' house to see them for a couple days and visit with my friends and family, before heading back home to spend some quality time together relaxing.
So, I guess I have some leave slips to turn in this week at work!! EEEEEEE!!
Ok, I'm going to TRY and go to sleep!

Night All!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Day 58: I have an identity

That's right. I'm now an official card-carrying governmental employee. I went in early today and got my CAC card, so now when I have to take a test as part of my training, I can just stick my card into the card reader on the computer, and my information is automatically pulled up. SWEET! All in all, it was a pretty good day. I got to talk to to Kent this morning, even though the connection was pretty bad, and the sound didn't work, but still, it was good to get to talk to him before heading out for the day.  Went to work, and didn't realize until about 2 that I had forgotten to eat both breakfast AND lunch...*sigh*
So, I had snack with the children, and then ate a bunch of Cheez-its on my break. HAHA. Apparently, in my mind, Cheez-its equal lunch. Whatever.
After snack, it was strange. We ended up not having ANY infants after that. They all went home, and no more came in. We just had a room full of pre-toddlers, and BOY were they a busy bunch! We had two boys that decided to gang up on the other children, and they kind of turned into the Bruiser Brothers. It was quite a crazy afternoon. Now, I am completely exhausted, and sore in all kinds of places. 
It's a little nuts to me sometimes that I work every single day. While I appreciate the hours that I'm getting because it's keeping me busy and I'm earning money, sometimes I just think that just 2 days off per week isn't enough some weeks. I don't know.
I'm really hoping that I can get some days off from work next week so I can spend time with my folks while they're here, but I'm not really sure how easy that's going to be...I feel like if I don't show up, I'm being selfish or something. I don't know. I guess I'll just have to talk to my room lead tomorrow while I'm there, and see if I can reduce my hours just for next week.
I'm tired. soo bedtime.
Love to all!

Monday, March 7, 2011

Day 57: Back to the world of the living.

Well, I was finally able to make it out of my house today, which is fantastic! I called into work this morning, and they wanted me to come in "Now" which was at 8:30 in the morning, and since I was still in bed, hadn't showered since thursday, and didn't want to, I told them I could come in at 11. So, at 11, I went in and worked in the toddler room for the first two hours, so they could get their lunch breaks in. Let's just say that I'm glad I don't work in the toddler room on a daily basis. It is CERTAINLY not for everyone.
Then, it was back over to the infant/pre-tod room, where I feel much better about my stress-level...
It was a pretty good day of work. I'm not completely sure if I'm ACTUALLY completely healthy again, but I felt well enough to leave the house, and quite frankly I needed to do something today.

Currently, I'm watching Conan, which I haven't been able to get myself to watch too much with Kent being gone, since it was our favorite show to watch together. But I needed to watch a happy show after a weekend full of Army Wives.
Anyway. For now, I'm feeling better.
Tomorrow I have to go in to post early and get my paperwork that I need to go and get my CAC card for my job. I still don't really know what CAC stands for, but I'm assuming it's something like  Computer Access Card or something. Whatever. Not that important. Basically, it just means i'm getting my government employee id. YAY
Well, I don't really have too much else in my brain that I feel like putting in a blog tonight.
I guess all I've got is that I can't wait for this weekend to get here. I need my parents here so that I have some people to entertain. I can't wait to make an effort in the meals that I prepare. I'm going to try and make some stuff that's not part of their normal meal routine! I want the student to become the teacher. lol. Don't get too scared mom. I'll let you and dad cook too!
My friends wore me out today.
ANNNND my back hurts....
love to all!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Day 56: Another Sick Day...

...has come and gone.
I was really upset when I woke up this morning at 7am to get ready for church, and I was still sick as a dog. So, I reluctantly crawled back into bed and slept until Kent called me on Skype. Which made me a bit happier. Annnd just like the last couple of days, I spent all day watching television, and then watched a couple hours of Army Wives. I'm on the second season now, and every episode still makes me cry. I was hoping that it would get easier to watch as the seasons wore on, but no, it's still very emotional, every episode. Thankfully, some of the crying has been happy crying!
Then it came time for supper, and as I reached into my freezer to grab my last frozen dinner, I saw the frozen chicken breasts on the bottom shelf and got inspired. So, instead of another terrible microwave meal, I decided to make chicken alfredo with broccoli.  I didn't have any fettuccine noodles, so I used egg noodles instead, and I used a jar of Classico Alfredo sauce as my sauce (although I added some garlic and Parmesan Herb seasoning to the chicken, and pepper and seasoning salt to the sauce). It actually turned out to be better than I expected it to be. I was quite proud of myself.
Here's a picture of my creation:

I was also elated to find out that I had made too much, so I saved the other half for one of these days this week that I get home from work and I'm not in the mood to do any cooking. YAY for leftovers!

But anyway. That's about the biggest excitement I had today. Also, I was able to cook a meal on my stove without setting off my smoke alarm. (which, for some reason, is located INSIDE my kitchen...completely inconvenient.
Love to all!

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Day 55: I don't wanna

I don't really feel like blogging today, so forgive me  if I sound a little negative....
I'm just eh today.
Still sick.
Stayed inside all day, and stared at the gloomy, rainy day outside.
Watched way too many episodes of Army Wives, and cried way too much. I've decided that it's probably detrimental to my emotional health to watch that many episodes in one sitting, but *sigh* I'm too addicted NOT to watch it continuously.

Ummmm, got to talk to my baby tonight, which made me happy, especially because both the video and the sound worked.

Before Army Wives, though, I was finally able to clean up my house, which makes me proud! The amount of clutter sitting in my living room and kitchen was really starting to stress me out, so I finally did something about it!
Anyway, that was my big achievement of the day....
Annnnnd that's about it.
I'm just ready for this sickness to end. As you read yesterday. Yeah, that's all I've got for today.
Sorry if I'm a negative Nancy...
Love to all!

Friday, March 4, 2011

Day 54: Will this ever end??

That's the question I keep finding myself asking today. Will this EVER end? And it is related to many things.

Mostly, I'm ready to be done being sick. Mostly because it's not like I have a fever. I just feel terrible. Today it turned into more of a coughing, sneezing, mucus-y thing. (Sorry if that's too much information...)  I'm just done. I had to call in to work today again, because I just couldn't get myself up out of bed. And, I'm starting to feel guilty. I feel like the girls in my room count on me to be there every afternoon, and I feel really bad not showing up, even though I know that it's really for the best for me to stay home.  I don't know. I just can't help but to feel bad about it all.
Also, I ready for this deployment to end. I'm sick of living alone. Sure, I have my cat, but I just long for someone to be here to listen to me blab, to help me clean up, to share the everyday responsibilities, to complain to whenever I want, and to go out with, even if it's just down the street to Taco Bell for dinner. This time without a lot of personal interaction has made me realize how much I crave human interaction. Maybe that's why I hate to be sick. I don't get to talk to people as much when I don't go to work.  It's just starting to feel like time is at a stand-still, and I'm getting a little afraid that April will never come.

Also, can I just say that I think that people who have real jobs (ie. me!), should be able to have a spring break too? I'm getting just a bit tired of all of the facebook statuses talking about going to the beach this next week...Not fair. If I could, I would jump in my car and drive down to the beach for the next SIX weeks. Maybe THAT would make the time go by faster... Enjoy spring breaks while you've got 'em college kids! You'll miss them when you're done with school! Trust me!
So, I guess that's the third thing that I'm ready for the end of....

I don't know what else to blab about. I'm just at a loss for what to say...
 I guess we'll see if this week can go by any faster than this past week went. (Which was pretty slow, if I do say so myself...)
Ok, gnight all!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Day 53: Tired...

I'm so tired tonight. I got up this morning, and I felt better than yesterday, so I decided to go to work today, mostly because I feel guilty NOT going at this point. So, I went to work, and felt okay until I went on break. I guess maybe giving myself time to sit and focus on myself for about 15 minutes, made me realize that I still didn't feel good. My headache started to rise to the surface again.
But, I was able to make it until 5, mostly because my shift was only 4 hours long, and came home to crash on my couch. Watched some more Army Wives. As I watch more episodes, I'm beginning to let myself ignore the technical aspects, and focus more on the story. And, it never fails. I will cry at every single episode. Sometimes they're happy tears, sometimes they're sad tears, but nonetheless, they're tears, and they're inevitable. I'm getting a little scared that I might be a little too emotional to be an Army Wife.
Oh well, too late now.

Ok, so anway, now as I'm laying here typing this, I'm starting to feel awful again. My throat's getting soar, and as I was talking to Kent on Skype, I started to acquire an awful cough. I don't know. We'll see how I feel when I wake up in the morning.

I'm so excited for this week to be over, because after this week, I'm that much closer to my parents coming down for a week, and after that week, I'm even closer to my baby coming home!!!!

I also can't wait to have a whole weekend to get over this sickness. I got invited to a spa night on Saturday by one of the girls that I work with, but I don't know if I'll go if I still feel like this. Which is depressing, because I really really really need a social life. Hanging out with Peaches and watching Netflix is getting pretty old.

Ok. Exhausted girl is now have problems typing correctly.
That's all for tonight.
Thanks for reading!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Day 52: Sicky Sicky

Today I was a sicky sicky! I still don't really know quite what is wrong with me, but I just feel gross.
It feels like my ears won't un-pop, so when I woke up this morning, my head was POUNDING. I was also quite sure that I had a fever. This was probably due to the fact that I had a dream last night, where I woke up this morning and had a temperature of 118.3 degrees Fahrenheit! Apparently my imagination has no sense of what temperature is TOO high, and would mean that I am boiling alive. Oh well. Anyway, I woke up for reals, and did not have a temperature, so I laid there for about an hour, debating on whether I should call in to work.  I ended up calling in and telling them I was sick, because my headache wasn't getting any better, and even if I didn't have a fever, I figured I wouldn't be any fun to be around today. So, I had a gross sick day full of pretty much nothing today. Which I have to admit, was kind of nice.
Yes, I was bored out of my mind, but it was nice to just lay on the couch, and not run after pre-todds all afternoon.
I have no idea how I'm going to feel when I wake up, but my left ear still hurts, and my headache is better, but still lingering. I guess we'll just have to wait and see if I feel better tomorrow, or if I end up feeling even worse! Hopefully better...

But, today I watched, I think, 6 episodes of Army Wives. I'm hooked. But still kind of upset about the series. It seems to me that they like to focus on the negatives, which I guess, makes the show more dramatic and intriguing from week to week, but it just makes me mad. Also, they don't really have a great variety of types of couples on the show. I can tell that they're trying. But two of the wives are married to Colonels, and another is married to a Major, and two are married to lower enlisted guys, but there's no representation of a young officer couple. Maybe I'm a little biased in this area, but while I understand that a new enlisted wife is a very intriguing character (in fact she's my favorite!), I would like to see the couple that thinks they know a lot about the Army, since they dealt with ROTC, and then they get to their unit, and all of the enlisted wives expect the new officer's wife to know everything, and be able to handle everything with poise, but she has no idea what's going on......hmmmm this story is beginning to sound too familiar....

Plus, NONE of the soldiers in the show wear their berets correctly. Being married to an army guy, I have seen the amount of tedious and ridiculous care and preparation goes into making a new beret perfect, and keeping it perfect. But, in this show, all of their berets look like they just pulled them off the shelf, brand new, and slapped it on their head, without shaping it or anything. It's very annoying to me. Hopefully, as the shows progress, so will the costume department in their research of beret-styling.
Sorry. Silly rant, I know, but as I was watching today, I could just hear Kent complaining about their lack of beret knowledge.  I guess he's rubbed off on me.

Anywho, I'm gonna go to sleep and hopefully I'll wake up headache-free.
Much love to all!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Day 51: TGIM!

For those of you who may be terrified that I meant "Thank Goodness It's Monday" need to go look at the calendar again, because it's Tuesday. But, I DID mean "Thank Goodness It's March!"
I'm so excited, it's kind of scaring me. I'm so happy that I will only have to pay the rent by myself one more time, scan my hubby's check into the USAA account one more time, and take care of the monthly bills alone in general, only one more time! HALLELUJAH!!

This morning, after being woken up by the roofers who came to fix the roof (yay),  I went to turn the rent check in, and then went to the March FRG meeting, which I have to admit, was very anti-climactic! I was expecting more information about redeployment, but what I got was an hour full of the same briefing that I heard last month, only this one was full of screaming children that apparently aren't enrolled in CYSS, or for whatever reason, were not taken to the provided childcare. Dumb. I mean, it was literally the same slide show from the last briefing. Ridiculous.  But, whatever. I guess it was a good refresher. Or something. I don't know.

Anyway, then I came back home for lunch, and then it was back in the car to go to work for the day.  Work was pretty good. Not too much drama, really. Changed some diapers, cleaned up messes, corralled children all day. The basics.
After work, came home and finished my last helping of leftover Taco Soup. Even a week and a half later, it was STILL really good, so I will definitely be making more of that in the future.
Unfortunately, now I'm not feeling well. My ear hurts quite a lot. It feels like it's popped, and I can't un-pop it. It's been like this for about 4 hours now, and I called my mom, and she said it sounded like sinus pressure, so I took some Nasal Decongestant, but it doesn't really seem to be helping. As I'm sitting here now, I'm also noticing that my throat is hurting, so I'm wondering if I'm coming down with something. I've been wondering when I was going to get sick from all of these coughing, runny nosed kids!
Oh well, hopefully a good night's sleep, with my roof fixed now, will help me kick this before it even starts!

Much love!