Ok, today's post is a depressing one. Just a warning....
I really wish Kent was home, especially this weekend. My mom got a call last night from my Uncle Dan, her brother-in-law, telling her that my Aunt Linda, her sister, has decided that she is ready to meet her maker. My aunt was diagnosed with ALS about 4-5 years ago, and has been suffering from the horrible disease ever since. There is no known cure, so it was really more of a waiting game. But, over the last couple weeks, I've been hearing from my mom and grandma that Linda has decided that she is done fighting with the monster of ALS, and wants to go to be with God now.
This saturday will be her last day.
I don't know what to do. I feel numb about the situation, and I almost feel like if I ignore the issue, then it won't be real...I know that Saturday is going to be one of the hardest days yet. My Aunt Linda was always my favorite Aunt growing up. She was a brilliant quilter, a loving mother, aunt, wife, and grandmother. She was also my godmother, which I'm pretty sure she would just use as an excuse to buy me more Barbie dolls, and other amazing presents. Sometimes I wonder if I already feel like she's gone. I haven't had a real conversation with her, or been able to hear her voice in so long, that I thought I had already made peace with her illness, but now that she's really going to be gone, I feel like my world is crumbling around me.
Plus, it doesn't really help that my parents are also leaving on Saturday. They have to get back to their regular lives, as do I, it just falls on a really rotten day.
I don't really know what else to talk about. This is really the only thing on my mind.
So, um. I would like to ask all of you who read this blog still, to take a moment to send out a prayer for my family. Even though she's been sick for so long, this is still going to be a very difficult time. So, prayers for peace for my family and for a comfortable and peaceful end to my aunt's long and vicious battle with ALS. But also, I would like to ask for everyone to send up a prayer for everyone who is dealing with this fatal disease, as well as their families. Nobody deserves to suffer the way that Linda has.
Ok. I'm going to sleep.