Day 108: Frightening Times

Sorry for the lack of an update yesterday, but I had too much to deal with to even think about blogging.

Last night, my brother called me around 8:30 or so, and informed me that my dad was in the hospital. He is a track coach at the middle school that I attended, which is also the school where my mom works, and he was at practice after school yesterday. He was running with some of the kids and fell and hit his head on the asphalt. Apparently, he was unconscious, and they had to do CPR on him until the paramedics arrived, and when they got there, they had to shock him with the paddles because his heart rate was so irregular. Sooo anyway, they took him into the hospital, and put him on some sedatives, and then hooked him up to a ventilator. Last night he had a couple of tests, because they don't know what caused him to fall, and he later woke up and was responsive, etc. But he was in the ICU last night and all day today. I actually just got word from my mom that they finally moved him into his own room, so that's a step in the right direction.
I just don't know what to do. I know I have to be here to greet Kent and be with him when he FINALLY gets home.. (that's another rant), but the daughter in me wants to just hop in the car right now and drive back up to St. Louis to be with my dad and my family. I don't know what kind of difference that I could make by being there with them, but I just feel so helpless....and I hate that I'm alone through all of this. I just my husband back sooo bad. I feel like within the 5 months that he's been gone, I've been through more chaos and pain than I have in a very long time.

It's like the world was waiting for me to be alone to throw all of this at me at once.

Anyway, on top of the stresses of my dad being in the hospital, we had some super awful weather last night, that kept me awake most of the night. There were multiple tornado warnings, and I had to go and sit in my bathtub once for about 20 minutes, but I was very grateful that it all pretty much stayed south of us. I didn't know just how blessed we were though, until I was watching the news tonight and found out that the same storm system that hit us last night tore its way through Mississippi and Alabama, and had some major tornadoes that ended up killing over 60 people. I'm thankful that everyone's okay here, but I'm mourning the loss of those people and praying for their families tonight.

Okay, so I'm not sure I'll be updating quite as frequently after this. I'm just a little burned out on it I think. I'm just ready for my husband to be home, and I'm ready to find out what caused my father (who, by the way, is only 52) fell and smacked his head so hard that he doesn't remember yesterday at all....


Please keep my father in your prayers in the coming weeks. I'll do my best to keep this blog updated.

Much love to all!
-Jessica